Every time I search the news to see the roots of destructive events all over the planet I get this deep depressing shock which maintains its own coals for a while. Whether its the avian flu, new manifestations of climate change and the criminal acts that follow (via Katrenia non-responce and murder of the poor black population in New Orleans) or ignored displacement of the 5,000 families in Tel Afar, . Reading real news put together from excelent sourse such as Sings of the Times always gives a much needed wake up call; however there is something very deep that I think occurs when you take an active roll in doing your own research. These emotions of dispare are difficult but it coincides naturally when one looks the true nature of this world, or so I think. People are suffering much more than I am at this moment. And what are the solutions? Drugs, faith in fairy tales, dependence, a hike on a beautiful mountain, etc. These things do nothing and serve exactly that - nothingness - the entropic black hole thats been destoying truth since time ever after. This of course is a valid and important part of the universe and serves in providing many lessons as painful as they subectively seem.

Our love, hope and faith is perverted. All thats left are the false representations we think we know of. In Beezlebubs Tales to his Grandson, Gurdjieff writes that it is the conscience that is the only nondistorted source we can access that might lead to our evolution. I agree with him. By experiencing empathy for the suffering of humanity one might get fed up enough with all the lies, distruction and manipulation that one might be motivated to try and learn what one can do. And that seems to be the very thing to do - to learn.